"Paradise" by Coldplay
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But if flew away from her reach
She ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of
para-para- paradise (2x)
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
And the bullets catch in her teeth
The wheels break the butterfly
Every tear is a waterfall
In the night, the stormy night, she'll close her eyes
In the night, the stormy night, away she'd fly
And dreams of para- para- paradise
And so lying underneath those stormy skies
she'd say "oh ohohohohoho I know the sun is set to rise"
This could be para- para- paradise (x10)
I can't wait to get to Paradise. As described in the Bible, Paradise is a waiting room, Abraham's bosom. Paradies is not the same as heaven; it's like a taste of what will be for that individual when Judgment Day comes.
Yesterday a good friend died. He was one of the most spiritually, pure-hearted encouragers that I've ever met. When he gave hugs, it was to special people and he only allowed arms and heads to lightly touch. He was always looking out for others. He touched so many lives just by being himself. I was blessed to know him for about 3 years. I know for a fact that he would not like that so many people sad over his death. He would tell us that he's in a much better place now and that God is in control. So it'll all be ok.
His death has taught me that you don't know the impact you leave on others. Life is too short to let bitterness or anger separate you from people. People are not going to be perfect; and you have to be willing to accept them for who they are, not who you want them to be.
Life is precious and brief so make the most out of every moment.
Saturday, December 19, 2015
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Halloween Traditions
With Halloween coming up in just a few days, I decided to post about holiday traditions.
My 8 traditions are:
My 8 traditions are:
- Decorating- with the discovery of gel clings, I've generously covered windows and mirrors scattered throughout the house along with some creepy additions.
- Handing out candy/toys-- it's all about the kids and making Halloween as good of an experience as I did when I was a kid. This year I decided to become a part of the Teal Pumpkin movement that gives out little toys like tattoos, bouncy balls, rubber bats, bubbles, etc. instead of candy due to allergies. I have had my own diet problems and cutbacks so I empathize. Halloween can STILL be fun without candy, and, for that matter, healthier!
- Watching 50's black and white "Frankenstein", "The Mummy," "Dracula."Bellow is a list of top Halloween movies:
Top 50 Halloween Movies - Dressing up-- I LOVE Halloween for this reason alone as it gives me an excuse to further indulge my inner child one day out of 365 without odd looks.
- Haunted houses- Getting scared is a must on Halloween to get into the mood
- Reading ghost stories- a few books I recommend is anything Edgar Allen Poe especially "The Pit and the Pendulum;" "Scary Stories" by Alvin Schwartz ; and "Legend of Sleepy Hollow" by Washington Irving.
- Hot cider. It's a MUST during autumn weather; not just for Halloween.
- Pumpkin carving- Halloween doesn't seem complete without it! I suggest looking up free Halloween stencils and printing them off and either taping or pinning them to the pumpkin.
What are some of your Halloween traditions?
Below are links for non-sweet items to give away and an explanation of what the Teal Pumpkin Project is about:
Allergy Awareness on Halloween
Non-Food Treat Ideas
Happy Halloween!
Allergy Awareness on Halloween
Non-Food Treat Ideas
Wednesday, August 19, 2015
Antioch Shootings
Two weeks ago, Wednesday, August 6, was the shooting at Antioch Carmike Hickory 8 theater. Vincente Mantono was a mentally ill individual who came armed with pepper spray, a hatchet, a fake bomb and a fake gun. In my opinion, he might have been trying to get himself shot; a type of suicide. Otherwise, he might've posed as more of a threat than he was if his object was to kill people. As it was, he wa the only one who died. A few suffered minor injuries.
As an Antioch resident, I will not let fear keep me from going to this theater whenever I want to. I will not let one incident or even several incidents determine that Antioch is a lost cause. I will stay in Antioch and fight the criminal stigma. Antioch still has a lot of good in it. If the good people flee then the criminals have won.
Here's the link to my editorial on Antiochtenn.com and another news link describing the attack:
My Editorial
Antioch Shooting News Story
As an Antioch resident, I will not let fear keep me from going to this theater whenever I want to. I will not let one incident or even several incidents determine that Antioch is a lost cause. I will stay in Antioch and fight the criminal stigma. Antioch still has a lot of good in it. If the good people flee then the criminals have won.
Here's the link to my editorial on Antiochtenn.com and another news link describing the attack:
My Editorial
Antioch Shooting News Story
Sunday, August 2, 2015
Imagine Dragons Part 2
I have taken a month-long hiatus because I didn't want my posts to become meaningless repetitions. Now that I have more material for writing, I shall continue. What a crazy, crazy month July has been!
On July 8th I went to another Imagine Dragons' concert at Bridgestone Arena. My friend, Amy (she invited me on the Destination Dragons tour in February) and I met up with a few of our Twitter fandom friends and we had a blast. We arrived at Bridgestone around 1:30 p.m. Doors didn't open until 6:00. Yes, it was hot; but it was completely worth it.
Some friends and I gave gifts and letters to the band. Among the gifts I gave were sparklers for each of the band members. Ben McKee, the bassist, decided to light his in the middle of the show. Dan, the lead singer, asked the crowd to pretend it was July 4th since they were in Canada on the 4th and didn't celebrate properly. After a couple of attempts at lighting the stubborn bugger, Ben finally got it lit and he held it up for all to see while everyone chanted "USA! USA! USA!" Later, I found that Ben changed his Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter pages to him holding the sparkler.
Ben's FB Profile Pic
Dan gave a beautiful speech of being proud to be an American at times and sometimes ashamed of it because of some of the tragedies that happened. But he was mostly proud because we were a generation that wanted to accept everyone regardless of backgrounds. Music was a way to tear down all walls and bring people from all walks of life closer together. I couldn't agree more. We try to make America a better place to be in. I, too, hope, for all its faults, that my generation has what it takes to rebuild America.
The other magical moment that happened was Daniel Platzman, drummer, following me on Twitter. The other gift I got was some BBQ sauce. I found out where his favorite BBQ place was and ordered two sauces. Then I cut some strips of paper and wrote "Please follow your #1 fan: * my Twitter handle*" "<3 Platz <3" (his nickname); and "enjoy a taste of home." That night, I got a follow from my favorite drummer ever; but I did not find out until the next morning when a friend told me.
The other really cool thing that happened was meeting Faith. Faith has gone through the wringer and came out one of the strongest people I have ever known. She came all the way from Missouri and spent two nights with Amy and me. It was the best 36 hours I've ever spent getting to know a person. It's the coolest and weirdest feeling to meet someone who shares similar interests and feel like they are instantly your best friend. This is what Imagine Dragons does for people. It's not just their music-- it's what they stand for. I only hope to pass on this joy in some small way to others. It's utterly contagious.
The concert wasn't quite the same effect as back in February when I was spoiled seeing them 5 nights --almost --back to back in cramped venues at the very front of the stage making eye contact with the guys. Those venues were intimate and this one was huge and it was hard to see all of the band members. They had a catwalk on stage and Dan was at the edge of it most of the time. But I liked seeing the other guys too. Dan was so funny; there was a couple of times he laid down at the edge of the catwalk and sang. It was like he was in his bedroom laying on his bed singing to some song on the radio.
I can't believe it's been over 5 months since Destination Dragons. Yet, how they helped me beat depression and find happiness in my life through God is unforgettable. There are no words to describe how on fire I became in my attitude and perception. You simply have to experience it for yourself. I'm quite motivated and not giving up on the direction life takes me. Whatever God wills me to do, I will do; because He knew exactly what I needed 5 months ago to knock me out of my head.
I continue to hold my head up high.
On July 8th I went to another Imagine Dragons' concert at Bridgestone Arena. My friend, Amy (she invited me on the Destination Dragons tour in February) and I met up with a few of our Twitter fandom friends and we had a blast. We arrived at Bridgestone around 1:30 p.m. Doors didn't open until 6:00. Yes, it was hot; but it was completely worth it.
Some friends and I gave gifts and letters to the band. Among the gifts I gave were sparklers for each of the band members. Ben McKee, the bassist, decided to light his in the middle of the show. Dan, the lead singer, asked the crowd to pretend it was July 4th since they were in Canada on the 4th and didn't celebrate properly. After a couple of attempts at lighting the stubborn bugger, Ben finally got it lit and he held it up for all to see while everyone chanted "USA! USA! USA!" Later, I found that Ben changed his Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter pages to him holding the sparkler.
Ben's FB Profile Pic
Dan gave a beautiful speech of being proud to be an American at times and sometimes ashamed of it because of some of the tragedies that happened. But he was mostly proud because we were a generation that wanted to accept everyone regardless of backgrounds. Music was a way to tear down all walls and bring people from all walks of life closer together. I couldn't agree more. We try to make America a better place to be in. I, too, hope, for all its faults, that my generation has what it takes to rebuild America.
The other magical moment that happened was Daniel Platzman, drummer, following me on Twitter. The other gift I got was some BBQ sauce. I found out where his favorite BBQ place was and ordered two sauces. Then I cut some strips of paper and wrote "Please follow your #1 fan: * my Twitter handle*" "<3 Platz <3" (his nickname); and "enjoy a taste of home." That night, I got a follow from my favorite drummer ever; but I did not find out until the next morning when a friend told me.
The other really cool thing that happened was meeting Faith. Faith has gone through the wringer and came out one of the strongest people I have ever known. She came all the way from Missouri and spent two nights with Amy and me. It was the best 36 hours I've ever spent getting to know a person. It's the coolest and weirdest feeling to meet someone who shares similar interests and feel like they are instantly your best friend. This is what Imagine Dragons does for people. It's not just their music-- it's what they stand for. I only hope to pass on this joy in some small way to others. It's utterly contagious.
The concert wasn't quite the same effect as back in February when I was spoiled seeing them 5 nights --almost --back to back in cramped venues at the very front of the stage making eye contact with the guys. Those venues were intimate and this one was huge and it was hard to see all of the band members. They had a catwalk on stage and Dan was at the edge of it most of the time. But I liked seeing the other guys too. Dan was so funny; there was a couple of times he laid down at the edge of the catwalk and sang. It was like he was in his bedroom laying on his bed singing to some song on the radio.
I can't believe it's been over 5 months since Destination Dragons. Yet, how they helped me beat depression and find happiness in my life through God is unforgettable. There are no words to describe how on fire I became in my attitude and perception. You simply have to experience it for yourself. I'm quite motivated and not giving up on the direction life takes me. Whatever God wills me to do, I will do; because He knew exactly what I needed 5 months ago to knock me out of my head.
I continue to hold my head up high.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
The Backbone of the Family
After writing about Dad it only seemed fitting to write another one focusing on the other half.
Two weeks ago Momma had a complete hysterectomy and I was almost a complete emotional wreck. I am a bundle of nerves when my loved ones go into surgery regardless if it's minor or major. It might also have something to do with going through heart surgery when I was 12 and I didn't have nice nurses... it was emotionally scarring and terrifying, but that's another story for another time.
SO. as a very belated Mother's Day tribute I can fully appreciate and reflect on all of those things Mom did for me that she can't do on her own or at all. It's not like I can't cook or do laundry... but it's like studying for a test. You KNOW all the answers, but when it comes time to take the test you freeze up. It's like you never read a single word. It was then that I fully appreciated what my mom does for us. She is truly the backbone because without her, things did not go as orderly or smoothly. Dad and I managed all right without her, but we still felt lost, like chickens with our heads cut off.
Don't ever take what your mother does for you for granted. Not even the small things. The small things usually go unnoticed, but they make the most impact in the most important areas. I especially realized this after all those little tasks fell to my responsibility rather suddenly. You don't realize just HOW MUCH time and effort goes into planning and running a household. You get used to a certain schedule and you just go with the flow. But, really, it is Mom who keeps that schedule in place. Even the small things....
Besides running a household, she is a huge emotional support. When Mom was in the hospital for two nights, I had to step up and take charge. I had some very large shoes to fill; and I know I didn't do things the way Momma would've done them, but I know I did my best and that was all that was expected of me. It was a highly stressful situation. I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders, but, I also felt I was treated as a responsible adult, which was refreshing. I felt useful and it helped me deal with stress. I just wish it were under different circumstances. The emotional support Momma provides me is astoundingly significant. You don't realize a good thing until it's gone.
I also got to see what it would be like if Mom died before Dad. Dad is totally lost without Momma. He simply doesn't know how to function. I had to be his brain as well as mine and I felt like I had half a brain as it were. but I was glad I was able to provide direction to not only help him but help myself as well. It was hectic trying to remember to do everything and I wondered "how does Mom do this without a planner? She just juggles it all in her head?! That's insane. I'd go crazy! I feel on the verge of losing it as it is." And, yet, she does it every day seemingly effortlessly.
Thankfully all is well now and went quickly back to almost normal. Mom continues to heal and recover every day. She still has limitations but she is fully operational as an emotional support. She's amazing; kinda like a one-woman circus act because it took two of us to attempt what she does every day.
Momma has always been loving and supportive of me. She has been the background voice in my head scolding me or praising me even when she's not there. She's involved and interested in my life. She's my best friend, mentor, comforter, nurturer, cheerleader, teacher, and, most importantly, mother. I will never be able to express to her enough just how much I love and appreciate all she's done for me. Perhaps I will only begin to understand half the sacrifices she makes for me if I ever become a mom myself.
I love my momma to the moon and back.
Two weeks ago Momma had a complete hysterectomy and I was almost a complete emotional wreck. I am a bundle of nerves when my loved ones go into surgery regardless if it's minor or major. It might also have something to do with going through heart surgery when I was 12 and I didn't have nice nurses... it was emotionally scarring and terrifying, but that's another story for another time.
SO. as a very belated Mother's Day tribute I can fully appreciate and reflect on all of those things Mom did for me that she can't do on her own or at all. It's not like I can't cook or do laundry... but it's like studying for a test. You KNOW all the answers, but when it comes time to take the test you freeze up. It's like you never read a single word. It was then that I fully appreciated what my mom does for us. She is truly the backbone because without her, things did not go as orderly or smoothly. Dad and I managed all right without her, but we still felt lost, like chickens with our heads cut off.
Don't ever take what your mother does for you for granted. Not even the small things. The small things usually go unnoticed, but they make the most impact in the most important areas. I especially realized this after all those little tasks fell to my responsibility rather suddenly. You don't realize just HOW MUCH time and effort goes into planning and running a household. You get used to a certain schedule and you just go with the flow. But, really, it is Mom who keeps that schedule in place. Even the small things....
Besides running a household, she is a huge emotional support. When Mom was in the hospital for two nights, I had to step up and take charge. I had some very large shoes to fill; and I know I didn't do things the way Momma would've done them, but I know I did my best and that was all that was expected of me. It was a highly stressful situation. I felt like the weight of the world was on my shoulders, but, I also felt I was treated as a responsible adult, which was refreshing. I felt useful and it helped me deal with stress. I just wish it were under different circumstances. The emotional support Momma provides me is astoundingly significant. You don't realize a good thing until it's gone.
I also got to see what it would be like if Mom died before Dad. Dad is totally lost without Momma. He simply doesn't know how to function. I had to be his brain as well as mine and I felt like I had half a brain as it were. but I was glad I was able to provide direction to not only help him but help myself as well. It was hectic trying to remember to do everything and I wondered "how does Mom do this without a planner? She just juggles it all in her head?! That's insane. I'd go crazy! I feel on the verge of losing it as it is." And, yet, she does it every day seemingly effortlessly.
Thankfully all is well now and went quickly back to almost normal. Mom continues to heal and recover every day. She still has limitations but she is fully operational as an emotional support. She's amazing; kinda like a one-woman circus act because it took two of us to attempt what she does every day.
Momma has always been loving and supportive of me. She has been the background voice in my head scolding me or praising me even when she's not there. She's involved and interested in my life. She's my best friend, mentor, comforter, nurturer, cheerleader, teacher, and, most importantly, mother. I will never be able to express to her enough just how much I love and appreciate all she's done for me. Perhaps I will only begin to understand half the sacrifices she makes for me if I ever become a mom myself.
I love my momma to the moon and back.
Monday, June 22, 2015
A Tribute to Fathers
It's been way too long since I've written. Don't worry I plan to catch you all up to date! But since it was Father's Day yesterday, I thought I should write about my dad.
I don't talk or write about my daddy often enough. We often butt heads and that's probably because we're so much alike. Most of the time our squabbles are over silly things; other times, we've misunderstood each other. Daddy is often oblivious to things around him; as well as he may very well be losing his hearing. If there's one thing I've learned from Daddy it's that when you're frustrated when someone is not paying attention, keep that frustration under wraps as much as possible and develop more patience. They are likely to respond positively.
Frustrations naturally come when you live with anyone. That's why it's so important to focus on the positive qualities of that person instead of the negative. Communication is also huge!! When you don't communicate well with a fellow housemate, tensions rise and perspectives are blown out of the water. That often happens with Dad and me; but we're working on it.
Daddy is a fighter. He's not perfect, but he has been such an excellent example to me to go against the norm. He was raised a Lutheran and converted to the Christian faith in his early 20s when he was in the service. When he met my mom, the only thing Momma knew about Daddy was that he was there when the church doors opened and when they closed. He is devoted to doing what is right and not afraid to admit when he's wrong. He's open to and dedicated to truth. His parents weren't happy with his decision and he had to deal with their reactions. He has trouble processing emotional pain and he lets things drag him down (partly the reason why he's in his own head too much). There are times he's so much in his own little world that he doesn't know what bothers him anymore. He's strong, but he thinks he has to bear the burden alone when he doesn't. He wants to see that I do what is right. He may not be the most fun, opening and affectionate of dads, but he gave me a moral compass with a rigid arrow. I give him credit for being true to himself.
He gives me stability and comfort just by being my dad. A lot of kids don't have that.
I was very much a Daddy's girl when I was little. He carried me on his shoulders when I was little, played hide and go seek, took me to the zoo and swimming, and read to me every night. He was also the one who tended to spoil me; Momma was always harder to convince. When I grew older he taught me how to shoot, gave me my first knife, gone walking and biking with me. Father/daughter time is a must to keep the relationship strong; and harder to find time when as I've grown older. But all relationships require effort from both parties.
Momma told me when I was a newborn, Daddy was afraid to hold me because he thought he might drop me. Momma tricked him into it anyway. He may not show it very much, but he has my best interests at heart. He wanted to "give a talking" to my ex boyfriend when he saw the emotional and physical toll it took on my health. I've never seen my dad want to stand up for me because it's not usually how he goes about handling conflict. Momma later told me this, privately. I sure wish I could've seen and heard it for myself!
Daddy may have his faults, but he's my daddy. I love him to pieces. I wouldn't want it any other way.
So here's to all you fathers: you are just as important in a family as a mother. Don't ever back down and give up on your kids. They want to know where the boundaries are and they want you to show them why they should respect you. Be interested and involved in your kid's lives. They need you even if they don't say it or show it. Families aren't the same without Dads.
Happy Father's Day; make the most of each moment and treasure the memories.
I don't talk or write about my daddy often enough. We often butt heads and that's probably because we're so much alike. Most of the time our squabbles are over silly things; other times, we've misunderstood each other. Daddy is often oblivious to things around him; as well as he may very well be losing his hearing. If there's one thing I've learned from Daddy it's that when you're frustrated when someone is not paying attention, keep that frustration under wraps as much as possible and develop more patience. They are likely to respond positively.
Frustrations naturally come when you live with anyone. That's why it's so important to focus on the positive qualities of that person instead of the negative. Communication is also huge!! When you don't communicate well with a fellow housemate, tensions rise and perspectives are blown out of the water. That often happens with Dad and me; but we're working on it.
Daddy is a fighter. He's not perfect, but he has been such an excellent example to me to go against the norm. He was raised a Lutheran and converted to the Christian faith in his early 20s when he was in the service. When he met my mom, the only thing Momma knew about Daddy was that he was there when the church doors opened and when they closed. He is devoted to doing what is right and not afraid to admit when he's wrong. He's open to and dedicated to truth. His parents weren't happy with his decision and he had to deal with their reactions. He has trouble processing emotional pain and he lets things drag him down (partly the reason why he's in his own head too much). There are times he's so much in his own little world that he doesn't know what bothers him anymore. He's strong, but he thinks he has to bear the burden alone when he doesn't. He wants to see that I do what is right. He may not be the most fun, opening and affectionate of dads, but he gave me a moral compass with a rigid arrow. I give him credit for being true to himself.
He gives me stability and comfort just by being my dad. A lot of kids don't have that.
I was very much a Daddy's girl when I was little. He carried me on his shoulders when I was little, played hide and go seek, took me to the zoo and swimming, and read to me every night. He was also the one who tended to spoil me; Momma was always harder to convince. When I grew older he taught me how to shoot, gave me my first knife, gone walking and biking with me. Father/daughter time is a must to keep the relationship strong; and harder to find time when as I've grown older. But all relationships require effort from both parties.
Momma told me when I was a newborn, Daddy was afraid to hold me because he thought he might drop me. Momma tricked him into it anyway. He may not show it very much, but he has my best interests at heart. He wanted to "give a talking" to my ex boyfriend when he saw the emotional and physical toll it took on my health. I've never seen my dad want to stand up for me because it's not usually how he goes about handling conflict. Momma later told me this, privately. I sure wish I could've seen and heard it for myself!
Daddy may have his faults, but he's my daddy. I love him to pieces. I wouldn't want it any other way.
So here's to all you fathers: you are just as important in a family as a mother. Don't ever back down and give up on your kids. They want to know where the boundaries are and they want you to show them why they should respect you. Be interested and involved in your kid's lives. They need you even if they don't say it or show it. Families aren't the same without Dads.
Happy Father's Day; make the most of each moment and treasure the memories.
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Corinne-isms
My own original phrases (some thought of on the spot) for your viewing pleasure:
- When life hands you lemons, roll them for optimum juice
- Life is experience
- Eat peanut butter straight from the jar. YOLO
- Pants are optional; females have a perfectly acceptable alternative-- a skirt.
- Prayer and a positive attitude is like using toothpaste and floss-- use daily to fight cavities.
- Music is the soul's way of communicating
- Life is a canvas and I will splash it with vivid colors
- Find an Olaf who gives warm hugs-- it chases every bad feeling away
- The most life altering blessings come at unexpected times
- Don't be afraid to make mistakes
- Pain is growth= growth is maturity
- Hope is the paddle board strapped to your leg while you float in the ocean
- Follow your dreams no matter the cost. NOT following your dreams is a steeper price
- Soetimes i ameka msitakes on purprose to ease up as a grammer natiz
- Thank those who gave you the tools to find your own strength
- Courage is knowing when not to respond and walk away
- Be the person who listens
- We possess the key to our own happiness
- Blame is a slippery slope; eventually it comes back to bite you
- Everything doesn't have to go my way
- No one person can be the sole reason for my happiness
- Stop looking at what others have and start looking at yourself
- I can only control myself
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Recommened Books
As both an avid reader and writer, I thought I'd share with you some books I've read and recommend:
Childhood Fiction
The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams
Superfudge by Judy Blume
Holes by Louis Sachar
Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine
Matilda by Roald Dahl
The Confessions of Charlotte Doyle by Avi
Young Adult Fiction
Red Glass by Laura Resau
Revolver by Marcus Sedgwick
Historical NonFiction
The Diary of Anne Frank
Great Speeches by Native Americans edited by Bob Blasidell
Historical Fiction
The Captain's Dog: My Journey with the Lewis and Clark Tribe by Roland Smith
Time of the Witches by Anna Myers
Code Name Verity by Elizabeth Wein
ClassicsSherlock Holmes By Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea By Jules Verne
Emma by Jane Austen
The Complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allen Poe
A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett
Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
The Yearling by Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings
Non-Fiction
Marley and Me by John Grogan
Christian Fiction
A Beauty So Rare by Tamera Alexander
Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers
Courting Cate by Leslie Gould
Self-Help/Spiritual Health
Removing Emotional Pain by Ron Wilkins
Rational Recovery by Jack Trimpey
Safe People by Drs. Henry Cloud and John Townsend
The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman
Childhood Fiction
The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams
Superfudge by Judy Blume
Holes by Louis Sachar
Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine
Matilda by Roald Dahl
The Confessions of Charlotte Doyle by Avi
Young Adult Fiction
Red Glass by Laura Resau
Revolver by Marcus Sedgwick
Historical NonFiction
The Diary of Anne Frank
Great Speeches by Native Americans edited by Bob Blasidell
Historical Fiction
The Captain's Dog: My Journey with the Lewis and Clark Tribe by Roland Smith
Time of the Witches by Anna Myers
Code Name Verity by Elizabeth Wein
ClassicsSherlock Holmes By Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
Phantom of the Opera by Gaston Leroux
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea By Jules Verne
Emma by Jane Austen
The Complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allen Poe
A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett
Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott
The Yearling by Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings
Non-Fiction
Marley and Me by John Grogan
Christian Fiction
A Beauty So Rare by Tamera Alexander
Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers
Courting Cate by Leslie Gould
Self-Help/Spiritual Health
Removing Emotional Pain by Ron Wilkins
Rational Recovery by Jack Trimpey
Safe People by Drs. Henry Cloud and John Townsend
The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Pick-Me-Ups
If you're feeling blue and looking for ways to cheer yourself, look no further! Here are 50 ways to do so:
- Pray/ Spend time alone with God
- Be goofy
- Watch Imagine Dragons' Radioactive here:
- List your dreams and how you plan to achieve them
- Youtube "Rhett and Link" or "Julian Smith"
- SLEEP
- Do something nice for someone else
- Go on a hike
- Build a blanket fort
- Put sticky notes with positive reminders on your mirror
- Stay off social media
- Stand on a shopping cart and roll down the parking lot (watch out for cars)
- Hang out with friends
- Vent your feelings to a friend, a piece of paper, or the wall-- don't keep it in!
- Meet new people
- Look for the International Space Station. For a list of times in your area click
here: spotthestation.nasa.gov/sightings - Go on an adventure
- Dress up and go to Wendy's
- Get up early to see the sunrise
- Make a movie of yourself talking with bubba teeth
- Fill up water balloons and throw them at passing cars
- Sing
- Go to the beach
- Drive with the windows down and blast music
- Ride roller coasters
- Ghosting Prank
- Watch Netflix in bed while cuddling with your favorite stuffed animal
- Buy glowsticks, turn the lights out in your room, and play techno music
- Go rock climbing
- Draw on the sidewalk with chalk
- Eat peanut butter directly from the jar
- Push yourself out of your comfort zone and try something new
- Volunteer for a local charity
- Practice relaxation techniques like deep breathing
- Free Disney Coloring Pages
- Forgive yourself
- Learn something new
- Knit/ Crochet
- Take up gardening
- Go to the library and read your favorite children's books
- Buy a new outfit
- Start a Nerf war here: nerf.hasbro.com
- Clean
- Take silly pictures of yourself
- Get a massage/pedicure/manicure
- Go to a park and swing with your eyes closed and lean your head back
- Talk in a chipmunk voice
- Take a hot bath
- Ride bicycles in children's section at Wal-Mart
- Cuddle a puppy or kitten
Thursday, April 30, 2015
Life After College
Nearly one year after graduating college, I thought it would be cool to make a list of habits/perspectives that have changed or stayed the same.
Here's the end result:
1) T.V.
I rarely watched television in school so reintegrating shows in my routine sometimes feels like I'm living two lives, which can be highly time consuming.
Click here to view recent clip from Jimmy Fallon Late Night show:
Nonsense Karaoke with Chris Pratt and Jimmy Fallon
'Cause every adult watches a late night show to keep their sanity, right? RIGHT?!
2) Coffee.
Tried it once or twice... ew.
3) Curfew
College was the only time I had a curfew and thus the only time(s) I may or may not have snuck out with a buddy...
It's only fun when you're not supposed to be out, and you can do it with a friend. Besides, I don't have class in the morning! Not that I usually went to bed early when I did have class anyway... At first, graduating from college feels like a permanent summer vacation until...
4) Job searching kicked in. In general, finding a job is not difficult; a job in writing, however, is. Most writing jobs require two or more years of experience. I need experience so I can get a job, but can't get experience unless I'm hired... yeah.
Can I get paid blogging at home in my pjs? (Seriously, though).
5) Relationships
-Friends: I'm not around friends all the time like I was in college. But let's be honest-- friends may have been present, but we did not hang out much in college because everyone had ridiculously hectic schedules. More time after graduation? Guess again. Friends graduate, marry, move, or are still in college.
-Dating: Haven't met the right guy, yet; but I'm not in a hurry. Odd, though, to see all my other friends engaged, married, or having babies. And some are younger than me.
6) Money
To be rewarded the fruits of my labor in the freedom of a paycheck is a sweet, sweet feeling. And I get to work more hours than a work study (allowed only 6 per week) and paid at a higher rate!
"NOW I CAN BUY ALL THE STUFF I'VE EVER WANTED!"- devil on left shoulder
"Start saving for retirement now."- angel on right shoulder.
Priorities.
7) Knowledge
I don't feel smarter, but now I own a fancy piece of paper that says I am and, therefore, entitled to a better paying job.
"Booya" RDJ style
8) Social Skills
If I had learned humility before now, I might've been able to save a couple of relationships. People respect and admire those who admit their faults and try to make things better. Communication should fall right into place after humility is learned.
9) Attitude
Humor and small talk goes a long way to brighten someone's day-- as well as your own. It's a challenge when I'm having a bad day; but when I'm focused on someone else, I don't have time to worry about myself. It's also a way of implementing God in every aspect of my life... but I'm getting ahead of myself.
10) Facebook
Still addicted, but in increments.
11) Dorm Life
I LOVE having my own room/bathroom again. There were times I liked sharing the space and talking to a good friend at the end of the day. However, that sometimes outweighed the cleaning. Living up to my neat-freak nature, I did my part as well as my roommate's. I quickly reached my limit when day after day I saw dried spittal and water marks on the mirror; toothpaste globs with hair in it stuck to the sink (hair, in girl's dorm, is EVERYWHERE); dirty dish water left standing for days, and, oh yeah, ants too. The conflict came when I asked the roommate do their part as well. I am nobody's unpaid maid.
12) Burnt popcorn/ hair chemicals that set off the alarm and woke up the whole dorm at 4 a.m., fire drills that sent me outside in all kinds of weather to wait for firefighters
...'nuff said.
13) Meals
One word: Homecooked.
14) Finals
Finals? What are finals?
15) Exercise
I lost 20 lbs freshman year by swimming three times a week, walking, cutting out sugars, and drinking more water. But, then I gained it back due to anxiety and unhealthy diet. I have since re-established walking and a paleo-based diet and am healthier now more than ever. It's all about your mindset.
16) Free Time
I do have more time for hobbies like recreational reading, Netflix, hanging out with friends, going to movies, etc. I used to journal a couple of times a week before I went to college, and that is a habit I am picking back up. Aspiring to be a writer takes a lot of work and you need the free time when you get it.
17) Stress
There will be stress at all different stages of life-- there is absolutely no avoiding it. However, I can change how I deal with it. College sent me into anxiety attacks; now I know how to handle stress such as practicing deep breathing. Learn to accept and enjoy life as it is today-- find the silver lining and thank God for the difficulties because they help you appreciate the good times.
18) Maturity
With pain is growth, and from growth is maturity. College is associated with a lot of growing pains; and ultimately I can be thankful for how I decided to let the pain shape me.
19) Spiritual Life
Attending a Christian college further impressed upon me how important it is to focus on God in all aspects of my life. I have since developed a stronger, well-rounded faith; and a deeper understanding and appreciation of God. That is the most important thing in this life as I prepare for eternity, and I never want to lose focus on that goal.
Conclusion: All of life is a learning experience; and I continue working on myself every day. With my degree in hand, I'm out to find my place in the world and contribute to society.
Here's the end result:
1) T.V.
I rarely watched television in school so reintegrating shows in my routine sometimes feels like I'm living two lives, which can be highly time consuming.
Click here to view recent clip from Jimmy Fallon Late Night show:
Nonsense Karaoke with Chris Pratt and Jimmy Fallon
'Cause every adult watches a late night show to keep their sanity, right? RIGHT?!
2) Coffee.
Tried it once or twice... ew.
3) Curfew
College was the only time I had a curfew and thus the only time(s) I may or may not have snuck out with a buddy...
It's only fun when you're not supposed to be out, and you can do it with a friend. Besides, I don't have class in the morning! Not that I usually went to bed early when I did have class anyway... At first, graduating from college feels like a permanent summer vacation until...
4) Job searching kicked in. In general, finding a job is not difficult; a job in writing, however, is. Most writing jobs require two or more years of experience. I need experience so I can get a job, but can't get experience unless I'm hired... yeah.
-Friends: I'm not around friends all the time like I was in college. But let's be honest-- friends may have been present, but we did not hang out much in college because everyone had ridiculously hectic schedules. More time after graduation? Guess again. Friends graduate, marry, move, or are still in college.
-Dating: Haven't met the right guy, yet; but I'm not in a hurry. Odd, though, to see all my other friends engaged, married, or having babies. And some are younger than me.
6) Money
To be rewarded the fruits of my labor in the freedom of a paycheck is a sweet, sweet feeling. And I get to work more hours than a work study (allowed only 6 per week) and paid at a higher rate!
"NOW I CAN BUY ALL THE STUFF I'VE EVER WANTED!"- devil on left shoulder
"Start saving for retirement now."- angel on right shoulder.
Priorities.
7) Knowledge
I don't feel smarter, but now I own a fancy piece of paper that says I am and, therefore, entitled to a better paying job.
"Booya" RDJ style
8) Social Skills
If I had learned humility before now, I might've been able to save a couple of relationships. People respect and admire those who admit their faults and try to make things better. Communication should fall right into place after humility is learned.
9) Attitude
10) Facebook
Still addicted, but in increments.
11) Dorm Life
I LOVE having my own room/bathroom again. There were times I liked sharing the space and talking to a good friend at the end of the day. However, that sometimes outweighed the cleaning. Living up to my neat-freak nature, I did my part as well as my roommate's. I quickly reached my limit when day after day I saw dried spittal and water marks on the mirror; toothpaste globs with hair in it stuck to the sink (hair, in girl's dorm, is EVERYWHERE); dirty dish water left standing for days, and, oh yeah, ants too. The conflict came when I asked the roommate do their part as well. I am nobody's unpaid maid.
12) Burnt popcorn/ hair chemicals that set off the alarm and woke up the whole dorm at 4 a.m., fire drills that sent me outside in all kinds of weather to wait for firefighters
...'nuff said.
13) Meals
One word: Homecooked.
14) Finals
Finals? What are finals?
15) Exercise
I lost 20 lbs freshman year by swimming three times a week, walking, cutting out sugars, and drinking more water. But, then I gained it back due to anxiety and unhealthy diet. I have since re-established walking and a paleo-based diet and am healthier now more than ever. It's all about your mindset.
16) Free Time
I do have more time for hobbies like recreational reading, Netflix, hanging out with friends, going to movies, etc. I used to journal a couple of times a week before I went to college, and that is a habit I am picking back up. Aspiring to be a writer takes a lot of work and you need the free time when you get it.
17) Stress
There will be stress at all different stages of life-- there is absolutely no avoiding it. However, I can change how I deal with it. College sent me into anxiety attacks; now I know how to handle stress such as practicing deep breathing. Learn to accept and enjoy life as it is today-- find the silver lining and thank God for the difficulties because they help you appreciate the good times.
18) Maturity
With pain is growth, and from growth is maturity. College is associated with a lot of growing pains; and ultimately I can be thankful for how I decided to let the pain shape me.
19) Spiritual Life
Attending a Christian college further impressed upon me how important it is to focus on God in all aspects of my life. I have since developed a stronger, well-rounded faith; and a deeper understanding and appreciation of God. That is the most important thing in this life as I prepare for eternity, and I never want to lose focus on that goal.
Conclusion: All of life is a learning experience; and I continue working on myself every day. With my degree in hand, I'm out to find my place in the world and contribute to society.
Saturday, March 21, 2015
Destination Dragons to Destiny
Below are videos of the Live at 35 concert and Southwest Airlines promotion describing the trip.
Imagine Dragons Live at 35 Destination Dragons Tour
I can't believe it's already been a month since I left on the most amazing once- in- a- lifetime trip. So, naturally, I need to write about it.
When my friend, Beatrice, called to tell me she had won the Grand Prize to tour with Imagine Dragons for 6 days (official trip name was Destination Dragons) I thought it was too good to be true. So I didn't allow myself to become excited about it until the day before the trip.
Tickets in hand, we left the house Friday Feb. 20 at the unforgiving hour of 2:30 a.m. for Los Angeles, California.
That first night at Troubadour was unforgettable. We were so close to the stage we were almost front row. Dan reached out and touched our hands, made eye contact with and sang to me. He took turns with several members in the audience. It was so intimate and better than anything I could ever imagine.
We met several people from and outside the group in LA. Every city we went to, we met other people who were flown in for a one night concert. Beatrice quickly and naturally struck up a conversation with anyone who was standing in line about how she won the tickets, while it took me a while to warm up to people. She made friends so quickly and easily.
I was dumbfounded and a bit jealous, I'll admit. But I took it as a healthy challenge to break the mold and talk to people.
The next morning, Saturday Feb. 21 we left for Provo, Utah and saw them at Velour. Our plane was delayed which ultimately made us later for the concert and further away from the stage. We craned around cellphones the whole time, which took away from the enjoying the concert. But we had three other concerts to look forward to.
Sunday Feb. 22 we arrived in Vegas and spent two days there. We stayed at the Hard Rock Hotel and saw them at a venue in the hotel called The Joint Monday, 23. We were front stage right this time-- right up against the railing.
We had signs made the night before from a vendor on Freemont Street with Dan's picture on it with the caption "Destination Dragons." We caught Dan (singer) and Platz's (drummer), and Ben's (bass) attention with the signs. Wayne (guitar) was too far to the left to see the sign. At the beginning of the show Dan looked over at a break in the song and saw the signs and smiled. We were closest to Platz and he kept making eye contact with us.
We got on the plane Tuesday Feb 24 with Imagine Dragons to Atlanta. They waited until we were 35,000 ft in the air (Live at 35) and played acoustic versions of "Radioactive," "Demons," and after much prompting "On Top of the World." It was the most incredible experience ever.
We had called "encore" before at other concerts but they did not come back. However, they obliged this time. Dan said they didn't usually come back when the crowd called encore because it was awkward. But it was more awkward to sit down and then have to get back up and crawl over people to perform.
Some of the passengers had no idea they would be on board with Imagine Dragons. Dan apologized because they had no where to go; Ben quipped they would know we were angry if we pressed the call button repeatedly. Of course no one did. Afterward, Dan came back and shook hands with us and took his time with everyone.
The next morning I awoke to find out my picture had been shown on Good Morning America.
The last concert was in Atlanta, Georgia at Terminal West. This was the night that topped all nights. We had our meet and greet with them, took a picture, talked to them and handed them a letter.
We were stage front and center making eye contact with Platz and Ben (mostly Platz); Plaz pointed, waved, gave hard hearts and winked at me and Amy. At the end of the show Platz kneeled down in front of us and gave us each a drumstick.
All of the concerts were standing room only with a couple hundred of us jammed elbow to elbow in the venue that made for uniquely intimate shows.
I blinked and it was all over.
I have felt like an insignificant human being that nothing interesting ever happens to. I have struggled with feeling undeserving. But I would never have been able to dream up such an incredible event would happen to me. It was real. It happened; and I will remember it forever.
Like I said earlier, it takes me a while to warm up to people. It was hard to break out of my mold and meet new people. I thought "No one wants to hear from me. I'm not interesting." So it was a complete surprise when people started talking to me and were actually interested in what I was saying. They didn't put me down like I was anticipating.
1st realization: people who were not raised in the church seemed to be much more friendly and accepting even though I was different from them. They quickly became like family; much quicker than I have experienced with most Christians.
2nd realization: I've been living the Christian life the wrong way. I'm not supposed to hide from the world because I'm afraid-- I'm supposed to go out and teach others because they need Christ. It's not about me and how safe I feel.
Again, I heard those same voices in my head telling me "I'm not good enough" "No one wants to listen to me" "you're going to fail" "you're not strong enough."
I was around drinking, smoking, and cursing. It actually strengthened me to be around it and not be as tempted as I thought I would be. I have never smoked or tried a drop of alcohol and I don't think I need to start now. To me, I see it as a way of escaping problems instead of dealing with them. Working around problems creates monsters and I have plenty of other demons to handle.
They quickly saw that I was not engaging in their activities (this was especially true in Vegas) and when they saw that, they respected me. They didn't try to push me into anything or criticize me for my choices. I still liked being around them and they still liked being around me.
Associating with people who lead racey lifestyles means that others may assume you are like them. When people saw Jesus eating with prostitutes and tax collectors they thought they were his best friends, when everyone else considered them to be scum of the earth.
Isn't that what Christianity is all about? (without condoning a lifestyle that Christ would not condone) and showing them the way to Christ?
Everyone is made in the image of Christ. God loves everyone and wants them all to be saved. He may not like what they do, but He still loves the person regardless. Isn't that what I'm supposed to do?
Plant a seed. Keep pushing your boundaries. Others will see that you're different and have questions. That will be your opportunity to explain Christ to them, so always be ready.
Christianity isn't about sitting in a pew and attending services regularly. It's about how you live your life, who you reach out to, what differences you make. It's about being different. It's about stepping out of your comfort zone.
Jesus took twelve men for apostles and they followed Jesus for two reasons: 1) Learn from Jesus so they can teach others and 2) Jesus needed encouragement.
3rd realization: I am not as far removed from mental abuse as I thought I was. When you're bullied for seven years and suffer from other abusive relationships (another story another time) you become frightened of the world thinking everyone is out to get you; and that is definitely not the case. Some people are not good to be around. But I thought the problem was me because it seemed like i couldn't keep friends. Actually, the problem with how I viewed myself. I attracted the wrong people by my type of thinking.
I'm not a screw up. I'm a beautiful human being.
What I had known to be the safest place on earth-- the church-- was actually becoming a prison. Many put on a facade that they're better than everyone else.
WAKE UP CALL: no one is better than anyone else.
4th realization: Life is beautiful and full of mistakes. As long as I learn from the mistakes and keep trying, I'm gonna be okay.
5th realization: Follow your dreams no matter what.
For a long time I thought I'm not good enough, and I could never follow my dreams or I'd fail. It would be best for me to do something more practical. Do the things others expect me to do.
But what I saw was five regular guys living and sacrificing to live their dream. What's the difference between them and me? Nothing except courage. But I can have that same courage. I decided then and there I'm never going to let depression, the past, or negative thinking stand in the way of my dreams. In many of Imagine Dragon's songs they talk about depression and not letting depression rule his life anymore.
Listen to "Polaroid" and "Radioactive." I feel like they're singing about my life. They were so encouraging to me in their songs and how they acted towards their fans. They were humble and down-to-earth.
My fire is lit and I'm not looking back. I have crazy ambitious dreams and I'm gonna pursue them with every fiber of my being. Or else I'll be forever second guessing myself, unhappy and unsatisfied with life. I can't go back to where I was before-- unhappy, depressed, secluded. I now think of ways to have adventures and meet other people. It keeps me from going back into my shell.
There is no greater joy in life than to experience true freedom from depression. You choose your mind set, your attitude, everything. You have the power to accomplish whatever you want to accomplish; and when you reach the sky keep going.
The sky is only the limit if you think it is.
Imagine Dragons Live at 35 Destination Dragons Tour
I can't believe it's already been a month since I left on the most amazing once- in- a- lifetime trip. So, naturally, I need to write about it.
When my friend, Beatrice, called to tell me she had won the Grand Prize to tour with Imagine Dragons for 6 days (official trip name was Destination Dragons) I thought it was too good to be true. So I didn't allow myself to become excited about it until the day before the trip.
Tickets in hand, we left the house Friday Feb. 20 at the unforgiving hour of 2:30 a.m. for Los Angeles, California.
That first night at Troubadour was unforgettable. We were so close to the stage we were almost front row. Dan reached out and touched our hands, made eye contact with and sang to me. He took turns with several members in the audience. It was so intimate and better than anything I could ever imagine.
We met several people from and outside the group in LA. Every city we went to, we met other people who were flown in for a one night concert. Beatrice quickly and naturally struck up a conversation with anyone who was standing in line about how she won the tickets, while it took me a while to warm up to people. She made friends so quickly and easily.
I was dumbfounded and a bit jealous, I'll admit. But I took it as a healthy challenge to break the mold and talk to people.
The next morning, Saturday Feb. 21 we left for Provo, Utah and saw them at Velour. Our plane was delayed which ultimately made us later for the concert and further away from the stage. We craned around cellphones the whole time, which took away from the enjoying the concert. But we had three other concerts to look forward to.
Sunday Feb. 22 we arrived in Vegas and spent two days there. We stayed at the Hard Rock Hotel and saw them at a venue in the hotel called The Joint Monday, 23. We were front stage right this time-- right up against the railing.
We had signs made the night before from a vendor on Freemont Street with Dan's picture on it with the caption "Destination Dragons." We caught Dan (singer) and Platz's (drummer), and Ben's (bass) attention with the signs. Wayne (guitar) was too far to the left to see the sign. At the beginning of the show Dan looked over at a break in the song and saw the signs and smiled. We were closest to Platz and he kept making eye contact with us.
We got on the plane Tuesday Feb 24 with Imagine Dragons to Atlanta. They waited until we were 35,000 ft in the air (Live at 35) and played acoustic versions of "Radioactive," "Demons," and after much prompting "On Top of the World." It was the most incredible experience ever.
We had called "encore" before at other concerts but they did not come back. However, they obliged this time. Dan said they didn't usually come back when the crowd called encore because it was awkward. But it was more awkward to sit down and then have to get back up and crawl over people to perform.
Some of the passengers had no idea they would be on board with Imagine Dragons. Dan apologized because they had no where to go; Ben quipped they would know we were angry if we pressed the call button repeatedly. Of course no one did. Afterward, Dan came back and shook hands with us and took his time with everyone.
The next morning I awoke to find out my picture had been shown on Good Morning America.
The last concert was in Atlanta, Georgia at Terminal West. This was the night that topped all nights. We had our meet and greet with them, took a picture, talked to them and handed them a letter.
We were stage front and center making eye contact with Platz and Ben (mostly Platz); Plaz pointed, waved, gave hard hearts and winked at me and Amy. At the end of the show Platz kneeled down in front of us and gave us each a drumstick.
All of the concerts were standing room only with a couple hundred of us jammed elbow to elbow in the venue that made for uniquely intimate shows.
I blinked and it was all over.
I have felt like an insignificant human being that nothing interesting ever happens to. I have struggled with feeling undeserving. But I would never have been able to dream up such an incredible event would happen to me. It was real. It happened; and I will remember it forever.
Like I said earlier, it takes me a while to warm up to people. It was hard to break out of my mold and meet new people. I thought "No one wants to hear from me. I'm not interesting." So it was a complete surprise when people started talking to me and were actually interested in what I was saying. They didn't put me down like I was anticipating.
1st realization: people who were not raised in the church seemed to be much more friendly and accepting even though I was different from them. They quickly became like family; much quicker than I have experienced with most Christians.
2nd realization: I've been living the Christian life the wrong way. I'm not supposed to hide from the world because I'm afraid-- I'm supposed to go out and teach others because they need Christ. It's not about me and how safe I feel.
Again, I heard those same voices in my head telling me "I'm not good enough" "No one wants to listen to me" "you're going to fail" "you're not strong enough."
I was around drinking, smoking, and cursing. It actually strengthened me to be around it and not be as tempted as I thought I would be. I have never smoked or tried a drop of alcohol and I don't think I need to start now. To me, I see it as a way of escaping problems instead of dealing with them. Working around problems creates monsters and I have plenty of other demons to handle.
They quickly saw that I was not engaging in their activities (this was especially true in Vegas) and when they saw that, they respected me. They didn't try to push me into anything or criticize me for my choices. I still liked being around them and they still liked being around me.
Associating with people who lead racey lifestyles means that others may assume you are like them. When people saw Jesus eating with prostitutes and tax collectors they thought they were his best friends, when everyone else considered them to be scum of the earth.
Isn't that what Christianity is all about? (without condoning a lifestyle that Christ would not condone) and showing them the way to Christ?
Everyone is made in the image of Christ. God loves everyone and wants them all to be saved. He may not like what they do, but He still loves the person regardless. Isn't that what I'm supposed to do?
Plant a seed. Keep pushing your boundaries. Others will see that you're different and have questions. That will be your opportunity to explain Christ to them, so always be ready.
Christianity isn't about sitting in a pew and attending services regularly. It's about how you live your life, who you reach out to, what differences you make. It's about being different. It's about stepping out of your comfort zone.
Jesus took twelve men for apostles and they followed Jesus for two reasons: 1) Learn from Jesus so they can teach others and 2) Jesus needed encouragement.
3rd realization: I am not as far removed from mental abuse as I thought I was. When you're bullied for seven years and suffer from other abusive relationships (another story another time) you become frightened of the world thinking everyone is out to get you; and that is definitely not the case. Some people are not good to be around. But I thought the problem was me because it seemed like i couldn't keep friends. Actually, the problem with how I viewed myself. I attracted the wrong people by my type of thinking.
I'm not a screw up. I'm a beautiful human being.
What I had known to be the safest place on earth-- the church-- was actually becoming a prison. Many put on a facade that they're better than everyone else.
WAKE UP CALL: no one is better than anyone else.
4th realization: Life is beautiful and full of mistakes. As long as I learn from the mistakes and keep trying, I'm gonna be okay.
5th realization: Follow your dreams no matter what.
For a long time I thought I'm not good enough, and I could never follow my dreams or I'd fail. It would be best for me to do something more practical. Do the things others expect me to do.
But what I saw was five regular guys living and sacrificing to live their dream. What's the difference between them and me? Nothing except courage. But I can have that same courage. I decided then and there I'm never going to let depression, the past, or negative thinking stand in the way of my dreams. In many of Imagine Dragon's songs they talk about depression and not letting depression rule his life anymore.
Listen to "Polaroid" and "Radioactive." I feel like they're singing about my life. They were so encouraging to me in their songs and how they acted towards their fans. They were humble and down-to-earth.
My fire is lit and I'm not looking back. I have crazy ambitious dreams and I'm gonna pursue them with every fiber of my being. Or else I'll be forever second guessing myself, unhappy and unsatisfied with life. I can't go back to where I was before-- unhappy, depressed, secluded. I now think of ways to have adventures and meet other people. It keeps me from going back into my shell.
There is no greater joy in life than to experience true freedom from depression. You choose your mind set, your attitude, everything. You have the power to accomplish whatever you want to accomplish; and when you reach the sky keep going.
The sky is only the limit if you think it is.
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